I'll admit I've been distracted. I'll admit I've spent more time with my local interest than I should have. I even moved closer to her so it would be easier to hang out. But now my long distance love has forcefully pushed herself back into my life. And as they say, hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
While she was, to use another cliche, "a hot mess" earlier this year, my long distance love has once again gotten her act together. After months of depression, she is now upbeat, enthusiastic, optimistic, and is moving into a brand new top-of-the-line home next year. To top it all off, people can't stop talking about her. It's amazing. And all this while my back was turned.
Meanwhile, completely by coincidence I hope, my local interest is completely losing herself. I really think the pressure of being an overnight success got to her. She has become the hot mess. Whereas the world was eating out of the palm of her hand mere weeks ago, now nothing can go right.
Once again I am conflicted. I know I should be celebrating the resurgence of my long distance love. We have been together for too long for me not to be happy for her. Yet, deep down, I am worried and concerned for my local interest. Whereas my long distance love has been through times like this before and we've been through both the best and the worst of times, my local interest could be really hurting. Having never tasted the nectar of success, I think she is much more fragile and may need me now more than ever.
But what do I know?
I'm just a guy whose heart is confused yet again.